Thursday, September 13, 2007

Saying out loud really doesn't make it feel better.

I feel really stupid, weak and alone.
And I just want to crawl into bed and cry or into someones arms and just stay there.

I just have this overwhelming sense of inner cold. I feel utterly empty and just wretched.
It's as if my self worth, power, determination and everything that made me myself is gone.
And I am weak and scared.
Mostly afraid that for once I am afraid and afraid over what I may do to get something anything to make things seem better.

I feel a bad path approaching and some dumb choices.

When you need the worst kinds of comfort, where do you go to get it? And how badly will you be burned?

2 comments:

katelyn said...

CHEER UP!!

I'm coming to Hali to see you on SATURDAY!! :D

<3

B.A.D. said...

Thanks hun looking forward to it!!!
I am feeling a lot better now, just overwhelmed with all my school work i'm behind on T.T.
On the plus side i'll be busy until I die and have no time to worry about being alone :P

I still need to get stamps and mail these letters, how many stamps does it take?