Thursday, September 13, 2007

Saying out loud really doesn't make it feel better.

I feel really stupid, weak and alone.
And I just want to crawl into bed and cry or into someones arms and just stay there.

I just have this overwhelming sense of inner cold. I feel utterly empty and just wretched.
It's as if my self worth, power, determination and everything that made me myself is gone.
And I am weak and scared.
Mostly afraid that for once I am afraid and afraid over what I may do to get something anything to make things seem better.

I feel a bad path approaching and some dumb choices.

When you need the worst kinds of comfort, where do you go to get it? And how badly will you be burned?


katelyn said...


I'm coming to Hali to see you on SATURDAY!! :D


B.A.D. said...

Thanks hun looking forward to it!!!
I am feeling a lot better now, just overwhelmed with all my school work i'm behind on T.T.
On the plus side i'll be busy until I die and have no time to worry about being alone :P

I still need to get stamps and mail these letters, how many stamps does it take?